Charcoaled Firefly

-I cut my hair-

No, I didn't cut it myself.
Anyway, I took a few pictures.
Here's two.

↑Soft.

↑Harder.

Yeah. I know I look kinda weird. I always feel weird when I take pictures alone. Hmmm, wonder why.

REMEMBER

I tried
To promise myself
I will get away
I will leave without a trace

I cried
I cried out inside
Cuz the only thing
I wanna hold on to
Is you

And baby
Will you remember
How we once were?
Now that you're gone
Things will never be the same
Every minute I'm alone
Every hour, every day
I've lost what I've found
So tell me will you remember
Cuz I will
I will
And I miss you

I can't
I can't be somebody else
Cuz I'm only myself
Love me for me

And I know I'm nobody
I know I'm not what you wanna see
But baby
You are everything to me

Where do I run to
I don't belong to anyone
Who do I turn to
I don't have anyone else
But you

I wrote this song 3 days ago.
Gimme some comments, thanks.

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You,
I can't stop thinking of you. Finally realized how cold you've been treating me lately. Wonder why you couldn't be there for me. Never there...

I can't turn my back on you. It hurts to see that you've moved on so much, so fast although you told me you weren't moving on, weren't letting me go. Can you see that I'm far behind now? Can you? I hope so. Then maybe you'll understand what I'm trying to express here. That is if you'll ever read my blog again. Nah... this is not about making you understand. Not about making you feel guilty over all the things you've done. No. I'm just here because I can't seem to get you out of my mind. I can't stop thinking how late I am to ask you to come back to me now. So late. So very late.

Like you said, we can't turn back time. We can't undo the mistakes. I let you go when I loved you so. And I know, you loved me too. But the difference is, I still do. And you're gone. A step too late. I shouldn't have. I shouldn't have suggested it to be over. I SHOULDN'T HAVE! I could've been holding you now. If only..

Well, guess I deserve this! Deserve to be hurted. Pained so deeply. Tears do come down, they do. You might think that I don't love you anymore... But the truth is, after the separation, I noticed how much I actually needed you. And now, I would have to get used to living alone. Because you, couldn't bother a thing about me no more. Is it because I've hurted you so bad? Or is it you finally realize I'm not good enough for you? Is it someone else? You know what, I'll never know.

Funny isn't it?

I told you I didn't want it to be my last kiss. You told me you couldn't even whisper that you love me even though you wanted to. Ah, yes.

*smile*

What can I do but to smile all the way?
Pretending that I'm fine and I'm cool with it.
What can I do except accept the fact that you're not mine anymore?
Do I have to pretend to be glad if I see you holding another's hand tomorrow?

Do you remember when you said you love the way I look at you? If you would want to look at me now, you'll have that same look from me that made you felt so loved.

It hurts to write in past tense.

Goodnight.
Sleep tight.

Me

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I said : If there is something you could do now, to not love me anymore, would you do it?
You said : I don't know.
I said : F*** you!
You said : You can afford to say such things to me, I'm not someone in control of you... Say what you want. To love or not to love you, I really can't be sure.
I said : Why?
You said : Although there are quite a number of bad times, but I can't deny that there are good times as well...
I said : All the good times we had, you could easily have them with other people. Anyone can do what I can.
You said : I don't have feelings for everybody...

I asked you that question again...

You said : To not love you anymore... Probably?
I said : Does that make it a yes, you will do it?
You said : What if I choose to do it afterall? (Sigh) There are times I wanna love you for ever, there are times I'm not sure if I'm the one to love you... And that makes me unsure.
I said : Yes or no only.

After a moment...

You said : I wanna love you! Tell me... Tell me I'm the right one for you.
I said : There are so many people who would want to love you, to not hurt you, to want to make sure every single moment is perfect...
You said : I just... I wanna love you whole heartedly! The pain you bring... I won't wanna not love you because of the pain! I don't believe in relationships without hurt... It's fake!

You walked away. I shouted goodnight and that I miss you.

The next morning, my phone beeped for your message.

"I miss you too..."

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Well, here's the second part of The Psychotic Lithiums.
Just uploading more pictures here.

But first off, here's a picture that sugarball refused to upload here.

↑From left, me (Milk Milk), Lisa (Sugarball), and Huay Ee (Ee Mui)...
Hey Sugarball! This pic is nice, ya know!

↑LIB - Lithiums In Black, we took this at a friend's party. Do we rock? Please do add a comment!

↑Well, this is me!

↑ This is Sugarball!

↑ Last but not least, Ee mui!

Okay, that's all for now.

We are.... aBOMBinable_aBOMBinable...

We are.... atrocious^atrocious...

We are....

THE PSYCHOTIC LITHIUMS!!!!!!

TO INFINITY. . .

AND BEYOND!!!!!

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I was so lonely,
I play pokémon cards with the little blue sitting object.

I was so bored playing cards,
I went to take my camera and took a picture of the little blue sitting object.

I decided to go blogging,
the poor little blue sitting object is still playing with the same three pokémon cards.

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Days, I've cried enough
I thought i fell for you; all such
Lies and so many of your bluffs
I thought I meant so much

My heart and my soul
Was starred in a play
A play went out of my control
When you took it all away

Blinded, it was all false
I wish I could forever trust
But believing left me lost
In this unsteady hurting rush

I wouldn't deny
That I love you still
In these sweet, comforting lies
Pathetic and unreal

You were everything, Love
You've made promises you couldn't keep
Foolish; I've had all the faith in you
Yes, I've lost my words

But life goes on, tougher
I should forget the you I once knew
But my life starts over,
Once again; With you

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