17 questions...
Should I believe you?
Should I not be trusting you?
Should I just walk away?
Or should I continue to stay?
I do not know how I'm suppose to feel,
To feel healthy or to feel ill.
But I know I'm going downhill,
The pain through realisation is just too real.
I'm not happy,
Is that your victory?
Is that what you need?
All those bunch of shit?
You said you don't know how to make it up to me,
Was that the finale?
I can't control my frustration,
I don't know how to make the best conclusion.
How do I know I'm not facing lies?
How do I know whether I should believe your denies?
The sound of your voice it still occupies,
Funny how that's not too big of a surprise.
Sitting here my mood I'm trying to restrain,
Thinking from the nicknames to the volleyball games,
Trying to recall all of the code messages you've decrypt,
Still looking at the phone waiting for it to beep.
Am I torn or am I broken?
Am I all these feelings I've just written?
Am I in confusion or it's just plain realisation?
You've played it well, what a great combination.
What if I'm the one who's in the wrong side of this matter?
Am I the one who's too caught in anger?
The one who turns everything into a disaster?
Or maybe I'm just too unbearable?
So many questions unanswered,
Leave me in this complete blur.
I can't pretend that I don't bother,
Cuz I've loved you so much and in my mind you still wander.
:wink:
Do you know me at all?
Hey you! DO YOU KNOW ME AT ALL?check this out...
1)do you have a crush now?
.::Guess so.
2)when did you have your last cigrette?
.::I don't smoke. Wanting to try.
3)have you been drunk before?
.::Yep.
4)who do you love?
.::People who loves me and people I care about and I love myself too.
5)what you doing now?
.::Isn't it obvious? I'm answering a question, 'what you doing now?'
6)what you wearing now?
.::B.U.M equip red shirt. Antioni khaki pants.
7)when do u have your last bathe?
.::Just.
8)what is your most important day?
.::Everyday.
9)do you have any tatoo?
.::Nope. Planning to get one. More like, trying to get one.
10)have any accident before?
.::Yep.
11)when did you watch your last movie?
.::Yesterday.
12)MOST trusted friends?
.::My close friends.
13)what are you interested in?
.::Almost anything.
14)what brand of cigrette you smoke?
.::Refer to question 2.
15)what song you listening now?
.::Paul van Dyk:Reflections (Club Mix)
16)favourite quote?
.::O SHIT!
1. YOUR HOROSCOPE?
.::Pisces.
2. SiNGLE OR TAKEN?
.::Not sure.
3. iF TAKEN, BY WHO?
.::Refer to question 2.
4. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN SERiOUSLY HURT BY THE
PERSON YOU LOVE/D?
.::Not really.
5. WHAT WOULD BE YOUR REASON iF YOU TURNED
SUiCiDAL?
.::I'm sick of being sick.
6. iS SUiCiDE REALLY KiLLiNG YOURSELF?
.::If suicide is not killing myself, then why the hell it's called suicide?
7. PREFER COUNTRY OR CLASSiC?
.::Classic.
8. PREFER CUTE/iDiOT OR SMART/UGLY
.::Cute/idiot.
9. ARE YOU iN A STABLE RELATiONSHiP WiTH YOUR
BF/GF/CRUSH?
.::Not so.
10. YOU`D ANTICIPATE TEXT MESSAGE(S)USUALLY FROM
.::I do not understand this question.
11. HAVE A BEST and TRUSTED FRiEND THAT iS iN THE OPPOSiTE
GENDER? WHO?
.::No.
12. WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOU`RE DEPRESSED?
.::Depressed? When you're depressed, you can't do anything, idiot.
13. CHEERFUL OR BORiNG?
.::Both.
14. DESCRiBE A PERFECT DATE.
.::Fun.
15. EVER WONDERED WHY NOBODY KNOWS WHY THE SKY
iS BLUE? WHAT DO YOU THiNK?
.::Yep. I wonder who's the first human being that says,'Hey! Look at that dangling thing, let's squeeze it and we can get white stuff that we can drink.'
16. EVER BEEN HURT BY LOVE?
.::Yes, but not really.
17. WiLL YOU EVER MAKE THE SAME MiSTAKE AGAiN?
WITH LOVE???
.::I might.
18. EVER HATED ANYONE LiKE HELL?
.::No.
19. DO YOU DO ANYTHiNG WHEN A PERSON BREAKS UP
WiTH YOU AFTER ONE DAY?
.::Yep.
20. GiVE ONE WORD THAT BEST DESCRiBES WHAT
YOU`RE FEELiNG NOW.
.::Stupid.
21. DO YOU BELiEVE iN YOURSELF?
.::Yep.
22. EVER PHYSiCALLY HURT YOURSELF?
.::Yep.
23. EVER VERBALLY HURT YOURSELF?
.::Yep.
24. MOTTO iN LiFE.
.::There's a will, there's a way. And noone can get in my way.
26. HAVE YOU EVER HAD *EXTRA* FEELiNGS ABOUT A
BEST FRiEND FROM THE OPPOSiTE GENDER?
.::*Extra*?
27. iF YES, WHAT DiD YOU DO ABOUT iT? iF NO,
WHAT WOULD YOU DO?
.::What the hell are you talking about?!
28. iS FAME & MONEY THE MOST iMPORTANT THiNGS iN
YOUR LiFE?
.::Fame, not so. Money, very.
29. DO YOU MAKE ANY MOVEMENTS OR SOUNDS WHEN
YOU`RE SLEEPiNG?
.::I don't know. I know I'm sleeping.
30. ARE YOU DiFFiCULT TO WAKE UP?
.::Every single day.
31. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SLEEP?
.::As much as I can.
32. ARE YOU CONVENiENT WiTH THAT?
.::Do I look like I'm not?
33. LAST, HAVE YOU EVER THOUGHT YOU WERE PERFECT?
.::No.
:wink:
[Untitled]
Rain pouring down outside...
Listening to what my heart says inside...
I miss you day, I miss you night...
And I don't care whether that's wrong or right.
Being with you is the best thing I can ever find...
The look in your eyes tells me I can never lie...
The warmth of your soul is one thing that stop me from saying goodbye...
I love you is what you remind.
The thoughts of losing you scares me...
Sometimes I just can't be what you want me to be...
I acted very stupidly...
And for what I've done, I'm sorry.
Sometimes I have this mixed emotions...
Towards my admirations and latest attractions...
But with the sound of your voice...
My day brightens.
You are just another person passed by..
And I know one day things will horrify...
But for now, my love for you I cannot deny...
So please let me be my best before you say goodbye.
Can anyone gimme a suitable title for this?
:wink:
I don't feel so good anymore...
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She told me she don't know how much she loves me although she did.
She did.
She did.
Was that a past tence or a present one?
I don't know what to do and I don't know what she wants me to do.
But a part of me just don't wanna know what she wants me to do.
I just...
Like I said...
It was UNBELIEVABLE.
Maybe it's time to let go.
But I don't want to.
I really DO NOT want to.
I'm missing her.
But what for if she's not?
God.
I felt so pissed yesterday.
And I just woke up and thought how foolish i was.
Maybe apologize is the only thing I can do.
To someone I feel so good about.
I don't wanna lose her.
But she don't seem like she wants me around.
Am I that irritating?
I love her.
More than I could love anyone else.
And it hurts that she just tore it apart.
Above there is a code puzzle I sent her. Anyone who can figure it out, 500 tbucks to you.
:wink:
I Am A Big Spender...
I am not happy but annoyed by it.
Sunday
I spent:
1. $99 on a pair of trousers
2. $100 on two pair of T-shirts
Total: $199
Today
I spent:
1. $50 on soft toys
2. $6 something on Melissa's ear rings
3. $9.90 on Ashlyne's stuff (whatever that was)
4. $7.90 on a box
5. $7 on sharing pizza
6. $3 on a cup of starfruit juice
7. $7.50 on a stupid idiotic cup of Mocha
Total: I don't know. Do the math.
You see, I'm not happy with myself. That cup of Mocha really pisses me off. I was like...
'Umm... Mocha please.'
So, that stupid lady went to get that small cup of Mocha and said this:
'That will be a seven fifty.'
I was like WHAT?!
'Seven fifty.'
THERE WAS NO PRICE STATED THERE!
Well, I wanted to give that liquid back, but seeing that lady has covered up the cover and everything, i just...
PAID.
And know what? I won't let anyone drink it. It was MINE.
I wonder how much a sip will cost me!
Comments?
:wink:
Sign boards?
March 14
wont
regret it...
I have this special friend named John.
He was
very sweet and
caring.
He always checked on me and treated me
a 'special' person. Suddenly I
realized,
I was falling for him. On March 14, he
proposed
to
me and we became a
couple.
He remained sweet and loving to me. Every
14th
of the month he would
say, "Cheska, I have to tell you something..."
but
will not continue
it and say
it was nothing. I became curious, was he
about
to
break up with me?
But I
continued to trust him. our graduation is
coming --
on March 14, 4
years later.
I knew that after this night, my family and I
would
be leaving for
the states.
We knew this time would come, and I never
expected it to hurt so
much. But I
have to go and leave him. We promised to
stay
in
touch and never
forget each
other. he gave me a box of chocolates,
flowers,
pictures of us
together and a
locket. and so, I left with memories of John in
my
heart.
We always e-mailed
each other and communicated. I told him
how I
loved life here, I
partied every
Friday with my friends, went shopping...I was
living
the life I
always wished I
had. But I was never able to read John's last
letter
because of my
hectic
schedule. I promised myself to read it when I
found
the time. Then
suddenly, it
stopped (his letters and e-mails). I was
wondering
why he isn't
writing to me
anymore. But I understand maybe he has
work
to
do. He didn't even
greet me on
March 14. After several months still without
communication, I found
time to
read his last letter and it was the most
shocking
moment in my life --
Cheska,
This is my last letter to you. remember when I
was supposed
to tell you
something important but was never able to
do
so?
I wanted to tell you
that
my "moment" (it means death) is March 14,
exactly 1 year later after
you left
and 5 years after I proposed to you. That was
what
the doctor said. I
have this
sickness, I forgot what it was called. All I
know
is
that I'm going
to die
soon. I'm not telling you to come back after
reading this letter, I
just wanted
to let you know that I will always love you and
that
forever you will
be in my
heart. I love you Cheska. Thank you for
changing
me. Thank you for
everything.
Goodbye I'm gonna miss you
Lots of love,
John
I wanted to cry and shout his name. March 14
was 3 months
ago! He died
3 months ago! And I never knew because I
was
so
busy enjoying my life
here when
someone I loved so much was suffering from
an
unidentified sickness.
Up to this
day I still feel guilty, I could have been right
beside
John when he
was ill,
but I was here partying and eating my heart
out.
I
was so guilty. He
died.
John died. Until his last breath he wanted to
be
with me. But I
wasn't there.
I went back to the Philippines and visited his
grave.
In it was written, "To John, who loved Cheska
so much, may he
forever
rest in peace" And he died on March 14.
March
14, when this day
comes, I cry,
laugh, think and feel guilty, this day I feel
mixed
emotions. I hate
myself.
Why do I have to read his last letter when it
was
too late? Why do I
have to
leave anyway? These questions keep going
on
my
mind. But I can do
nothing now.
John is up there. I guess he wanted me to be
happy. I still love
John. And I
miss him so much.
If you don't want to feel the pain that i feel
right
now, repost dis message. Or else i will hunt
you
cause dis means you dont care about your
love...
ps: treasure everything u had
now,especially "the
one in ur heart"
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So... Which one shud I choose?
