What might have happen...if...
The second day...
You saw that same person eating her bread...
All alone in the canteen...
Watching people laughing away...
The third day...
You saw her in the toilet...
Crying her heart out...
Still there alone...
The fourth day...
You heard the announcement...
She committed suicide...
It was the last day...
The very first day...
You told yourself that you were going to say hi...
The second...
You told yourself that you were going to share your food with her...
The third...
You told yourself that you were going to give her a hug...
But did you?
No...
You did not...
Now that she's gone...
You live your life wondering...
What might have happen...
If...
But it's too late...
It's over now...
You can't turn back time...
And see her lonely eyes again...
Don't wait...
You never know what might happen the next second...
With just one blink...
In the eye...
Sometimes...
Your one touch...
Can save one life...
One more friend...
Look around you...
Open up your eyes...
Can you see them?
Can you feel how they feel?
Have you ever tried to help them?
Or you just tell yourself that you were going to?
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It...
Have you ever felt numb...
Like whether or not you still feel the same...
Or you still want it...
But you don't feel it anymore...
You can be super happy this moment...
Then a few minutes later...
You feel super down...
What is this feeling called...
You feel numb when you look at it...
You feel numb when you talk to it...
You feel numb when you listen to it...
You feel even numb when you feel the warm of it...
Do you know...
That some things...
Are meant to be memories...
And memories are always yours to keep...
I don't wish to see it sad...
And I don't wish me to let its' sadness upset...
What am I to do...
Like it said...
It takes a life time to forget a person...
Sometimes...
Things around you...
They just remind you of it...
Eventhough you don't want to be reminded...
You don't feel sad nor happy...
You feel empty...
Like you are too confused...
That you don't know how it wants to be treated...
It's like playing a game...
When it's game over...
Will you play it again...
Or you'll just leave the game aside?
Will you give up or again you fight?
But...
When you finished the whole adventure of that game...
You'll feel satisfied...
You will not play the game anymore...
You look for new ones...
Turn around...
Do you see it?
Yes...
You do...
Cuz no matter what you see...
You'll still see it in your mind...
You often wonder...
How long will it stay like that...
You wish someone can just brain wash you...
And wash it away...
And it hurts to think...
That it's not going to go away...
Anything can be said to be the past...
But the memories...
They are said to be as the past...
But they will never be the same as the past...
They can be good ones...
They too can be bad ones...
But they are memories...
Memories of it...
Can you forget it?
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I just want you to know, that I still care...
Where are you?
What are you doing now?
What are you thinking?
Who is there with you?
I wonder.
I can only wonder.
Cuz I can't ask you.
And you won't answer me.
How to feel?
When I call.
You are busy.
And you never ask me to call back?
How to feel?
When I message you.
You pretend like you never recieve it.
You never reply?
What should I do?
To forget you?
What should I do?
To not care?
I think as I stare.
Thinking about what might have happened.
Staring at pictures.
Of you.
When will I see.
The angel.
Sent down.
From above?
When will that star.
Fall down.
From the sky.
Above?
When?
How long?
Sooner?
Or later?
Deeper than the sea.
Thicker than the woods.
Taller than the mountains.
I care.
Yes.
I gave you Mt. Everest.
You.
You gave me St. John's Hill.
I.
Gave you the Pacific Ocean.
You.
Gave me a swimming pool.
How can that be fair?
Never.
It can never be fair.
No way.
But.
I have to know that.
There's no such thing.
As give and take.
I can only give you.
But I cannot hope for anything in return.
But I hope.
You can at least appreciate what I give.
You have two hearts now.
I have none.
Please don't.
Break those hearts.
If you can't handle two.
Please give mine.
Back to me.
It tortures.
Things have changed.
Too much.
In.
Too little time.
What really happened?
I don't know.
What is the cause?
I have no idea.
All I know.
Is that I want.
To turn back.
The time.
And freeze there.
At that moment.
When laughter.
Was with both of us.
Whatever happens next?
I just want you to know.
That I still care.
Incase there's any confusion...
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Search within you...
How is it like to feel this way? How can anyone understand how I am feeling? Nobody. Cuz I don't even know wat I'm feeling myself...
I Hate This Life...
Here's the top ten:
10. [u]My forever problematic internet connection[/u]
What? I am NOT connected to another computer! I know you are not in the best of mood nowadays, but it's not fair to screw your owner's life!
9. [u]My forever don't-know-what-to-do feeling[/u]
Sitting around, too lazy to stand up, what can I do at this position? Don't know. Nothing to do. Time wasting time!
8. [u]My forever nothing-to-watch tv[/u]
Umm...no, no, no, no. Not cartoons, not news, not Non-stop Hitz (It's non-stop, true, it's non-stop the same music video), not Disney Channel, not Star News Asia, not golf, not CNBC...NOTHING!
7. [u]My irritating friends irritating me[/u]
Argh! Stop irritating me! Do you know how irritating it will be when you are waiting for that 'someone' to call and instead it's some stupid dunno-how-to-decribe people who calls? And you have to talk to them cuz it's too hard to reject them? Then the phone is forever engaged and that 'someone' can't call in? ARGH!
6. [u]My loneliness at home[/u]
Always alone at home. Nobody. Nobody. Nobody. Just me and my friend, loneliness.
5. [u]My stupid idiotic brother[/u]
Alright, I want to take this time to complain. He is 12 years old...and he is acting like a 2-year-old? Puh-Leez, STOP ASKING ME TO BUY LUNCH FOR HIM! Pheew~!
4. [u]My mother who has been kinda weird recently[/u]
How are you feeling? Did you study today? Why are you always infront of the computer? Who are you chatting with? You go and bathe, I chat with them. WHAT?! This is so not like her, well, part of it yes, the 'Did you study?' part. STOP STRESSING ME!
3. [u]My father, who is he?[/u]
Don't act like you care when you don't and you don't know anything...short and sweet for you...
2. [u]My hair[/u]
Great...the shop was not open today. I wonder why? My hair is like totally...so...sucking now! I need a damn hair-cut! Maybe tomorrow, if the shop's not open, I am going to buy an extra sharp scissors and cut it!
1. [u]My ***[/u]
Well...welcome to my number one. Big problem! Well..not that big, actually. But, I don't know...*** is kinda weird recently...there's something I don't know. And it disturbs me. Umm...why? Might as well forget it...Well, trying...trying...trust me, I CAN DO IT!
Now you know why...got any nice things for me to do? Leave me a comment! It'd be very nice of you...
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