Thank you very much...
03.27.04 (6:10 am) [edit]
Mood: :lol:
Well...as you can see...I am happy :wink: ...I finally figured out what went wrong...I've been telling everyone that what I am doing now is all wrong...it is against everything...it is a sin...
But...
Two days ago...thank God I met some friends...she told me that it's not who you give it to...it's not whether it is right to give...it's whether it is worth it to give...and it's whether it's truth that you give...and it's WHAT you give...all matters is the ~love~ that you give (well...she likes to use love...lol)...the ~love~ is the important part...
They said if I think what I'm doing now is wrong...asked me to think about it again...
God will send those who've commited sins to hell...but God created man with love...
These people are brave enough to tell the other part that they love them...they have the courage to get married...eventhough everyone around them thinks that they are abnormal and disaprove everything that they do...they managed to cope and marry each other...
Let me ask you...
Will God be touched by what these people have done...they are willing to give up what they have...and they can be lonely too...Will God be THAT cruel to send them to hell...
The world is changing...turning 360* around...
My thoughts changed...360*...
I understood...finally...
I was confused...that's why everything went wrong...
One of them told me to that A should wait for B...because that 50% is worth more than enough...
If A not wait...A simply just give that 50% away...
If A wait...A will not lose anything...
If it turns out well....
A gets what she wants...
If it don't turn out what A wants it to be...
Then A will know that she has tried her best...and that B simply don't seem to understand and it's B's lost...
She was very right...
She made me understand what I want...
Yes...it's true...I want B...but...sometimes it's just not that easy...things might turn out a mess...but she taught me to be open-minded...helped me open up my heart...that eventhough I might be very sad...that I still have others...there's still too many people waiting for me to care for them...there's still too many people waiting for me to make their lives happy...there's still too many people waiting for me to love them...
But for now...she asked me to keep myself for B...try to put my 100%...
Nobody likes to think that they are not 100% being loved...the feeling is just not right...it's the feeling called worry...and it's not something that human beings like to feel...I've been through that and I don't want others to feel that way...It's the thing called greed...and it's not something that God created...
But in my opinion...I don't think B is THAT bad...I just hope that she can stop being soooo confuse herself...and choose one between A and D...it's no hurry...well...at least for me...I can wait...sure...but tell me...do you guys think that B still wants to be so confused? It's easy to choose which one that you think that gives you the most...it's too easy for you to choose which one that you'd really like to be with...
But...
It's too hard for you to tell...to speak out...
And...
To admit...
It's okay...B...you knoe what?...A thinks you should take your time...
Remember when A say A MIGHT change my mind?
Forget that...I don't think A's going to...now that A understands...
A siad A will wait until the end of next month...if until then you are still feeling confused...then A'll just have to take that and to admit that you've already given A up...A said that A cannot convince you to do the things that A wants you to do...and A does not want to rush things...A's not forcing you...but I think a month is more than enough...
Think about it...
A really needs you to learn to appreciate what you have now...and not trying to give up because you think it's wrong...
I just want you to be happy...
:D
Well...as you can see...I am happy :wink: ...I finally figured out what went wrong...I've been telling everyone that what I am doing now is all wrong...it is against everything...it is a sin...
But...
Two days ago...thank God I met some friends...she told me that it's not who you give it to...it's not whether it is right to give...it's whether it is worth it to give...and it's whether it's truth that you give...and it's WHAT you give...all matters is the ~love~ that you give (well...she likes to use love...lol)...the ~love~ is the important part...
They said if I think what I'm doing now is wrong...asked me to think about it again...
God will send those who've commited sins to hell...but God created man with love...
These people are brave enough to tell the other part that they love them...they have the courage to get married...eventhough everyone around them thinks that they are abnormal and disaprove everything that they do...they managed to cope and marry each other...
Let me ask you...
Will God be touched by what these people have done...they are willing to give up what they have...and they can be lonely too...Will God be THAT cruel to send them to hell...
The world is changing...turning 360* around...
My thoughts changed...360*...
I understood...finally...
I was confused...that's why everything went wrong...
One of them told me to that A should wait for B...because that 50% is worth more than enough...
If A not wait...A simply just give that 50% away...
If A wait...A will not lose anything...
If it turns out well....
A gets what she wants...
If it don't turn out what A wants it to be...
Then A will know that she has tried her best...and that B simply don't seem to understand and it's B's lost...
She was very right...
She made me understand what I want...
Yes...it's true...I want B...but...sometimes it's just not that easy...things might turn out a mess...but she taught me to be open-minded...helped me open up my heart...that eventhough I might be very sad...that I still have others...there's still too many people waiting for me to care for them...there's still too many people waiting for me to make their lives happy...there's still too many people waiting for me to love them...
But for now...she asked me to keep myself for B...try to put my 100%...
Nobody likes to think that they are not 100% being loved...the feeling is just not right...it's the feeling called worry...and it's not something that human beings like to feel...I've been through that and I don't want others to feel that way...It's the thing called greed...and it's not something that God created...
But in my opinion...I don't think B is THAT bad...I just hope that she can stop being soooo confuse herself...and choose one between A and D...it's no hurry...well...at least for me...I can wait...sure...but tell me...do you guys think that B still wants to be so confused? It's easy to choose which one that you think that gives you the most...it's too easy for you to choose which one that you'd really like to be with...
But...
It's too hard for you to tell...to speak out...
And...
To admit...
It's okay...B...you knoe what?...A thinks you should take your time...
Remember when A say A MIGHT change my mind?
Forget that...I don't think A's going to...now that A understands...
A siad A will wait until the end of next month...if until then you are still feeling confused...then A'll just have to take that and to admit that you've already given A up...A said that A cannot convince you to do the things that A wants you to do...and A does not want to rush things...A's not forcing you...but I think a month is more than enough...
Think about it...
A really needs you to learn to appreciate what you have now...and not trying to give up because you think it's wrong...
I just want you to be happy...
:D
To wait or not to wait...
03.23.04 (2:50 am) [edit]
:arrow: The answer is obvious...
"If you want to give up...can you really give her up?"
"I don't think so..."
"Then? Isn't it obvious? The answer is just right infront of you?!"
Okay...A can't give up THAT easily...so...the obvious thing is that A HAS to wait...no more other ways...
Cruel?
Too...
A said this...
A:"She gave me 50/50...me and D..."
"Is that enough for you?"
"No..."
"Then?"
"I don't know..."
"You know it's sometimes really hard to make a decision between two person that you like?"
"I know..."
"Maybe that was how she felt...she couldn't make a decision...so...50/50 was a fair answer..."
"...Who do you think she prefers?"
"Of course...the...the D..."
"Why?"
"I mean...it's commom sense...if I were her...I'll choose D too..."
"Then what am I suppose to do? It's not like D likes her more than I do..."
"I know...but...I think...I THINK...that she likes D more than she likes you..."
"I AM SO DONE!"
"..."
"Then why am I suppose to wait?!"
"Because...you don't want to believe that all the things you've gone through are all wasted now..."
"Can understand..."
"And you know...maybe it's just you...maybe you cannot give a person up without getting them...So...all you can do is wait..."
"What if she uses me?"
"Do you think she will?"
"I don't know...but a lot of people think so..."
"You should learn to trust your friend you know..."
"Yes...yes...I know..."
"Good..."
"What if I trust the wrong person..."
"Okay...tell me...honestly...you like her or not?"
"Yes..."
"Then? Why you don't believe her?"
"I don't know...confuse...confuse..."
"..."
"Do you think I should wait...okok...one last time..."
"My opinion...no...but you have to follow your heart..."
"I DON'T KNOW!"
"Yes you know...you want to wait...because you will never put your hands up and say that you surrender..."
"Maybe..."
" :( I will wait if there is a chance...What for I wait if she really really likes D? I wonder who's the person that she cannot live with..."
"Come on! You are not going to...well...to tell you the truth...I don't think this will last..."
"Isn't it better?"
"Yes...but..."
"I will never treat her like what I did last time...the least...I will still treat her as a friend after everything is gone...I SWEAR...I will never treat her like that 'somebody'..."
"Okay...fine..."
Well...that's what A said...
I think...
I don't know...but I do think that what they said was right...no matter what...A will still wait...
Things to be done:
a) A will ask B whether if there is a chance...
b) If no chance...A might get sad for a while...but I guess A will learn to give up...
c) If there is a chance...A will definitely wait...but A will wonder all kinds of things...like...'How long should I wait?'...'Is she doing this just to use me?'...'Why did she wanted me to wait?'...All these questions will be in A's mind...and A will be confused again...
UNLESS
d) B told A that B will never so such things and that B will never let what A did to be wasted...so that means...B must really really reallt try to forget D...Umm...I like that...but...TOUGH...it's perfect...but possible?
Anyway...B said she was sad just now...A asked her why..she wouldn't tell...
A is really really confused now...Is it because of G?
O yeah...A went to have lunch with G just now...WAIT!!!...B saw??...Umm...uh-oh...problems problems...but I am SURE that A likes B more than G...so...I hope that B knows that too...
B...if you are reading this...can you please write something?...You are torturing A...
:wink:
"If you want to give up...can you really give her up?"
"I don't think so..."
"Then? Isn't it obvious? The answer is just right infront of you?!"
Okay...A can't give up THAT easily...so...the obvious thing is that A HAS to wait...no more other ways...
Cruel?
Too...
A said this...
A:"She gave me 50/50...me and D..."
"Is that enough for you?"
"No..."
"Then?"
"I don't know..."
"You know it's sometimes really hard to make a decision between two person that you like?"
"I know..."
"Maybe that was how she felt...she couldn't make a decision...so...50/50 was a fair answer..."
"...Who do you think she prefers?"
"Of course...the...the D..."
"Why?"
"I mean...it's commom sense...if I were her...I'll choose D too..."
"Then what am I suppose to do? It's not like D likes her more than I do..."
"I know...but...I think...I THINK...that she likes D more than she likes you..."
"I AM SO DONE!"
"..."
"Then why am I suppose to wait?!"
"Because...you don't want to believe that all the things you've gone through are all wasted now..."
"Can understand..."
"And you know...maybe it's just you...maybe you cannot give a person up without getting them...So...all you can do is wait..."
"What if she uses me?"
"Do you think she will?"
"I don't know...but a lot of people think so..."
"You should learn to trust your friend you know..."
"Yes...yes...I know..."
"Good..."
"What if I trust the wrong person..."
"Okay...tell me...honestly...you like her or not?"
"Yes..."
"Then? Why you don't believe her?"
"I don't know...confuse...confuse..."
"..."
"Do you think I should wait...okok...one last time..."
"My opinion...no...but you have to follow your heart..."
"I DON'T KNOW!"
"Yes you know...you want to wait...because you will never put your hands up and say that you surrender..."
"Maybe..."
" :( I will wait if there is a chance...What for I wait if she really really likes D? I wonder who's the person that she cannot live with..."
"Come on! You are not going to...well...to tell you the truth...I don't think this will last..."
"Isn't it better?"
"Yes...but..."
"I will never treat her like what I did last time...the least...I will still treat her as a friend after everything is gone...I SWEAR...I will never treat her like that 'somebody'..."
"Okay...fine..."
Well...that's what A said...
I think...
I don't know...but I do think that what they said was right...no matter what...A will still wait...
Things to be done:
a) A will ask B whether if there is a chance...
b) If no chance...A might get sad for a while...but I guess A will learn to give up...
c) If there is a chance...A will definitely wait...but A will wonder all kinds of things...like...'How long should I wait?'...'Is she doing this just to use me?'...'Why did she wanted me to wait?'...All these questions will be in A's mind...and A will be confused again...
UNLESS
d) B told A that B will never so such things and that B will never let what A did to be wasted...so that means...B must really really reallt try to forget D...Umm...I like that...but...TOUGH...it's perfect...but possible?
Anyway...B said she was sad just now...A asked her why..she wouldn't tell...
A is really really confused now...Is it because of G?
O yeah...A went to have lunch with G just now...WAIT!!!...B saw??...Umm...uh-oh...problems problems...but I am SURE that A likes B more than G...so...I hope that B knows that too...
B...if you are reading this...can you please write something?...You are torturing A...
:wink:
What if B forgets D??
03.22.04 (3:30 am) [edit]
:!: Okok...
Tough question to answer...
:arrow: B asked A to accompany her to the toilet...and she said that she has something to tell A...
:?: She asked :" What happens if B forgets D? "
Hah! Possible?
My opinion:
No...
Others' opinion:
No...
B's opinion:
Trying...
Conclusion:
No...
Well...at least that's what I think...anyway... :wink:
Okay...now...
The problem:
"Ever wonder if B is just taking you as a temporary replacement for D?"
"If you want to wait for her...you are STUPID!"
See...people don't think that A should wait for B...they thought it was stupid...S-T-U-P-I-D....
:? If B is taking A as a replacement now...oh...not replacement...but TEMPORARY one...is B taking A for granted?
Well...A did asked B this question...
Guess the answer....
"I don't know..."
Do you know how confusing people get when "I don't know..." is the answer to the question that you were asking? :!:
A called B...
A wonders if B will forget D...since D has been calling...no...miss-calling...B...
"D tells B about D's problem and B tells D about B's problem..."
:arrow: Umm...they really has got THAT many 'problems'?
My opinion:
No...
Others' opinion:
Don't know...
B's opinion:
Too unprepared to ask...
So...see the problem is?
:arrow: What if A is not going to wait for B?
My opinion:
Well...B will feel...her so-called 'normal'...
Others' opinion:
I don't know...she said she'll feel very sad...
B's opinion:
Umm...dunno...sad maybe...haven't been through yet...
Conclusion:
Agree with B...haven't been through yet...
I just hope that B will understand how much A likes B...at least I don't think she realizes...
I think B thinks that A doesn't like her that much...instead somebody else...G...
Well...yes...A does like G...but I don't think as much...G is very nice to talk to and is very beautiful...sure...I know...but A barely know G...so...not a very good option...
But who knows?
Things can change 360* in just a few seconds...
But I don't think A will just leave all this and not care and just go to G...I don't think A will just let it go that easily...
:)
Tough question to answer...
:arrow: B asked A to accompany her to the toilet...and she said that she has something to tell A...
:?: She asked :" What happens if B forgets D? "
Hah! Possible?
My opinion:
No...
Others' opinion:
No...
B's opinion:
Trying...
Conclusion:
No...
Well...at least that's what I think...anyway... :wink:
Okay...now...
The problem:
"Ever wonder if B is just taking you as a temporary replacement for D?"
"If you want to wait for her...you are STUPID!"
See...people don't think that A should wait for B...they thought it was stupid...S-T-U-P-I-D....
:? If B is taking A as a replacement now...oh...not replacement...but TEMPORARY one...is B taking A for granted?
Well...A did asked B this question...
Guess the answer....
"I don't know..."
Do you know how confusing people get when "I don't know..." is the answer to the question that you were asking? :!:
A called B...
A wonders if B will forget D...since D has been calling...no...miss-calling...B...
"D tells B about D's problem and B tells D about B's problem..."
:arrow: Umm...they really has got THAT many 'problems'?
My opinion:
No...
Others' opinion:
Don't know...
B's opinion:
Too unprepared to ask...
So...see the problem is?
:arrow: What if A is not going to wait for B?
My opinion:
Well...B will feel...her so-called 'normal'...
Others' opinion:
I don't know...she said she'll feel very sad...
B's opinion:
Umm...dunno...sad maybe...haven't been through yet...
Conclusion:
Agree with B...haven't been through yet...
I just hope that B will understand how much A likes B...at least I don't think she realizes...
I think B thinks that A doesn't like her that much...instead somebody else...G...
Well...yes...A does like G...but I don't think as much...G is very nice to talk to and is very beautiful...sure...I know...but A barely know G...so...not a very good option...
But who knows?
Things can change 360* in just a few seconds...
But I don't think A will just leave all this and not care and just go to G...I don't think A will just let it go that easily...
:)
Frenz are like the stars...
03.20.04 (7:15 pm) [edit]
Eventhough you don't see them...but you know they are there...
I see my friends...5 days a week...
But they were not there...
People around me...were too busy to show that they care... :(
I realized how much I needed them...
yesterday... :wink:
When I was chatting with a friend...
A friend that I've never seen before...
Funny how sometimes people that you don't know, care more about you than people that you care...
Holidays supposed to be fun...
But with tons of work to do...
It's more like a living hell...
I cannot do things myself...I guess I'll have to admit that to everyone now...
All the work that I've copied...well...that's a lot I guess...
I really need to do things...
BY MYSELF now...
Look what happened?
Today is the last day of my one-week holiday...
I haven't do anything yet...
I feel so useless...
All I know is having fun...
The happy-go-lucky life...
No...that's not the correct life to live...
Eventhough it's stressless...
That's still not the proper life...
You will fail in the days to come...
You will never succeed anything that you do...
But...what others did... :(
I see my friends...5 days a week...
But they were not there...
People around me...were too busy to show that they care... :(
I realized how much I needed them...
yesterday... :wink:
When I was chatting with a friend...
A friend that I've never seen before...
Funny how sometimes people that you don't know, care more about you than people that you care...
Holidays supposed to be fun...
But with tons of work to do...
It's more like a living hell...
I cannot do things myself...I guess I'll have to admit that to everyone now...
All the work that I've copied...well...that's a lot I guess...
I really need to do things...
BY MYSELF now...
Look what happened?
Today is the last day of my one-week holiday...
I haven't do anything yet...
I feel so useless...
All I know is having fun...
The happy-go-lucky life...
No...that's not the correct life to live...
Eventhough it's stressless...
That's still not the proper life...
You will fail in the days to come...
You will never succeed anything that you do...
But...what others did... :(
The scar you left...
03.20.04 (4:05 am) [edit]
How to hide the pain that I am feeling...
The place where I lost you...
You scent went away...
So fast...
I was left behind...
I closed my eyes...
I can still see...
The scar you left...
When you went away...
Under the moon...
I kept searching...
For the figure I miss...
If breaking up...
Is the beginning of pain...
But before the end...
I would love to love again...
I want to tell you...
The love that I'm afraid to tell...
Will there be anyone...
Who can understand...
I will day dream...
And then forget you...
After that...
Close my eyes tightly...
Thinking about the day...
When someone replace that place...
Let me stop missing you...
I will keep dreaming...
And then smile a small smile...
After that...
Close my eyes tightly...
Again...
Thinking about your sweet-looking face...
Right before I forget it...
The tears in my heart...
Blurred my view...
You will soon...
Never get to see this again...
The place where I lost you...
You scent went away...
So fast...
I was left behind...
I closed my eyes...
I can still see...
The scar you left...
When you went away...
Under the moon...
I kept searching...
For the figure I miss...
If breaking up...
Is the beginning of pain...
But before the end...
I would love to love again...
I want to tell you...
The love that I'm afraid to tell...
Will there be anyone...
Who can understand...
I will day dream...
And then forget you...
After that...
Close my eyes tightly...
Thinking about the day...
When someone replace that place...
Let me stop missing you...
I will keep dreaming...
And then smile a small smile...
After that...
Close my eyes tightly...
Again...
Thinking about your sweet-looking face...
Right before I forget it...
The tears in my heart...
Blurred my view...
You will soon...
Never get to see this again...
Your replies to A is very confused...
03.19.04 (7:36 pm) [edit]
Your replies to "A is very confused"...
:? » adeline[outside user] 03.16.04 [5:28 pm] (PST)
a should not wait 4 b coz b doesn't worth to be!
---B doesn't worth to be? Why not? B told A that B likes A too...is it worth it to believe B?
:? » newbie[outside user] 03.16.04 [6:56 pm] (PST)
I think A should wait 4 B.love can't be forced, if u like sumbody u think u will so fast 4get that person? so just wait ...the world can change,y not B?
---Why not B? Yea...why not B? But man...how long should A wait until B changes? What if B will never change? A will wait forever?
:? » fishu[outside user] 03.16.04 [8:20 pm] (PST)
Urmm.... I dun think 'A' should wait... watever for, dun waste time. Time is precious. Since 'B' dun like 'A' den let it be larr. 'A'.... if u really love someone, u would like dat someone to be happy. U can't possibly force 'B' to accept u rite? IF 'B' accept u but in the heart he/she likes another person... wat's da point. U'll make urself even more upset den before. So think about it my fren ; ) smileeee.... dun be sad, there's many other guys/gals in the world... u'll find a perfect one sooner or later. Dun think much, smile n da world will smile with you. All the best!
---Time is precious...agree...hello?? You blur?? B confessed that B likes A too?? Did you read properly?? Hello?? But...whether true or not...I don't know...A is NOT forcing B to accept A...A is just confused whether to wait...I'm smiling...can't see wether the world is smiling back...
:? » anonymous 03.16.04 [8:26 pm] (PST)
I dunno lar...but if some1 send me a message saying that "eventhough u like some1 else...I will still wait for u..." i sure feel very touched 1...
B, u should b happy that some1 like u that much...
A, i knoe how u feel...sometimes things r like that...like they say...they world can change...mayb someday B will change too...
---Come on! Who won't be happy if someone likes them? Hw long should A wait until B changes? What if B will never change? A will wait forever? Think about it...
:? » legolas[outside user] 03.17.04 [8:36 pm] (PST)
if A really likes B, A can wait but its stupid.is A a girl n B a boy or same sex???i think if A can care bout B as a friend , A wont b confused.
---Why are you asking stupid questions?? Never I guess I told you the other already...well...you know what? A will be more confused if A care about B as a friend...A will never tell B everything that A told...
:? » cringinginside 03.19.04 [4:16 am] (PST)
A shouldn't really wait for B cuz I doubt B will change his/her mind. A should forget and move on.
---You doubt that B will change his/her mind...well...that's what I think too...Forget? Too hard...Move on? A will not move on until everything is settled...A is not going to move on, confused...
:? » unknown[outside user] 03.19.04 [6:49 am] (PST)
'A' should chose a person that she can't live without
---Wait...are you sure that you understand the story? Coz I don't think so...
:?
Confusing, confusing...
I am confused...
You are confused...
Looks like everyone is confused...
Arg!!! I HATE being confused!!!!!
HELP!!!!! :evil:
:? » adeline[outside user] 03.16.04 [5:28 pm] (PST)
a should not wait 4 b coz b doesn't worth to be!
---B doesn't worth to be? Why not? B told A that B likes A too...is it worth it to believe B?
:? » newbie[outside user] 03.16.04 [6:56 pm] (PST)
I think A should wait 4 B.love can't be forced, if u like sumbody u think u will so fast 4get that person? so just wait ...the world can change,y not B?
---Why not B? Yea...why not B? But man...how long should A wait until B changes? What if B will never change? A will wait forever?
:? » fishu[outside user] 03.16.04 [8:20 pm] (PST)
Urmm.... I dun think 'A' should wait... watever for, dun waste time. Time is precious. Since 'B' dun like 'A' den let it be larr. 'A'.... if u really love someone, u would like dat someone to be happy. U can't possibly force 'B' to accept u rite? IF 'B' accept u but in the heart he/she likes another person... wat's da point. U'll make urself even more upset den before. So think about it my fren ; ) smileeee.... dun be sad, there's many other guys/gals in the world... u'll find a perfect one sooner or later. Dun think much, smile n da world will smile with you. All the best!
---Time is precious...agree...hello?? You blur?? B confessed that B likes A too?? Did you read properly?? Hello?? But...whether true or not...I don't know...A is NOT forcing B to accept A...A is just confused whether to wait...I'm smiling...can't see wether the world is smiling back...
:? » anonymous 03.16.04 [8:26 pm] (PST)
I dunno lar...but if some1 send me a message saying that "eventhough u like some1 else...I will still wait for u..." i sure feel very touched 1...
B, u should b happy that some1 like u that much...
A, i knoe how u feel...sometimes things r like that...like they say...they world can change...mayb someday B will change too...
---Come on! Who won't be happy if someone likes them? Hw long should A wait until B changes? What if B will never change? A will wait forever? Think about it...
:? » legolas[outside user] 03.17.04 [8:36 pm] (PST)
if A really likes B, A can wait but its stupid.is A a girl n B a boy or same sex???i think if A can care bout B as a friend , A wont b confused.
---Why are you asking stupid questions?? Never I guess I told you the other already...well...you know what? A will be more confused if A care about B as a friend...A will never tell B everything that A told...
:? » cringinginside 03.19.04 [4:16 am] (PST)
A shouldn't really wait for B cuz I doubt B will change his/her mind. A should forget and move on.
---You doubt that B will change his/her mind...well...that's what I think too...Forget? Too hard...Move on? A will not move on until everything is settled...A is not going to move on, confused...
:? » unknown[outside user] 03.19.04 [6:49 am] (PST)
'A' should chose a person that she can't live without
---Wait...are you sure that you understand the story? Coz I don't think so...
:?
Confusing, confusing...
I am confused...
You are confused...
Looks like everyone is confused...
Arg!!! I HATE being confused!!!!!
HELP!!!!! :evil:
Alarm? Disturbance?
03.19.04 (6:25 am) [edit]
Alrite...give me your explaination...
Alarm...is an alarm or a disturbance?
Alarm...is an alarm or a disturbance?
A is very confused...
03.16.04 (6:44 am) [edit]
Z sent a message to N...and this is how it went...
A told B that A likes B but B didn't give any respond...should A wait for B...think about it...
After a few seconds...N called Z and said that A should wait for B...and that maybe B also like A but is afraid to tell A...
Well...actually A was referring Z to A and B to N...so...it was like A's Z and B's N...and Z thought that N should know...
A few days later...A noticed that B was treating A differently and was very upset...A wondered what happened...
On 12th March 2004...the day before our school's camp fire...
C1 told A that B changed B's mind...A found out that B "won't"...and was very confused why B changed B's mind...before that B used to say that B 'will'...
C2 saw A was very upset and asked A what happened...C2 suddenly said something like...B told me something...but I promised B not to tell anyone...
And so...A forced C2 to tell A what did B told C2...
As the result...someone has been back-stabbing A and told B that A said B was very cheap...
At first C2 refused to tell A who back-stabbed A...but A forced C2 again...and A found out...
A promised not to tell anyone that C2 told A all those things because C2 is afraid that B might get angry...
13th March 2004...a few hours before the camp fire started...
A found out that B actually likes another person already...D...
Well of course A felt stupid...A thought about it and felt terrible...why did A cared so much for B? Stupid? Totally! But A did something even stupid...A sent B another message...
Eventhough B likes somebody else...A will still wait for B...END OF STORY...
A did not talk to B after that...
14th March 2004...
A couldn't stand it anymore...A told B about E...B cried because B felt guilty...A asked about D too...and B told A that B likes D...A asked B whether to wait for B...
Everything is settled now...the only problem is that...
A really really likes B...
B likes D...
D likes someone else...
B told A that there is no point liking D since D likes somebody else...
And told A that B likes A...
A thinks that B still likes D and was very confused whether to wait for B...
B made A believe that B actually likes A too...
A sent another message...
A will wait for B until B accepts A again...
The next day...A, B and C2 were talking...
A asked C2 whether A should wait for B...C2 said 'no'...A asked why...C2 said:" Because every time when D called...B looked very happy and excited...when A called B...B got like that meh?"
B said got...
A didn't really believed...really...
If A wait for B...
Suddenly...D likes B...
and B will sure go to D...
What can A do?
Wait?
How long?
Should A wait if there is a chance...
Or A should wait no matter what...
A is very very confused...
So...should A wait for B?
Please help...
A told B that A likes B but B didn't give any respond...should A wait for B...think about it...
After a few seconds...N called Z and said that A should wait for B...and that maybe B also like A but is afraid to tell A...
Well...actually A was referring Z to A and B to N...so...it was like A's Z and B's N...and Z thought that N should know...
A few days later...A noticed that B was treating A differently and was very upset...A wondered what happened...
On 12th March 2004...the day before our school's camp fire...
C1 told A that B changed B's mind...A found out that B "won't"...and was very confused why B changed B's mind...before that B used to say that B 'will'...
C2 saw A was very upset and asked A what happened...C2 suddenly said something like...B told me something...but I promised B not to tell anyone...
And so...A forced C2 to tell A what did B told C2...
As the result...someone has been back-stabbing A and told B that A said B was very cheap...
At first C2 refused to tell A who back-stabbed A...but A forced C2 again...and A found out...
A promised not to tell anyone that C2 told A all those things because C2 is afraid that B might get angry...
13th March 2004...a few hours before the camp fire started...
A found out that B actually likes another person already...D...
Well of course A felt stupid...A thought about it and felt terrible...why did A cared so much for B? Stupid? Totally! But A did something even stupid...A sent B another message...
Eventhough B likes somebody else...A will still wait for B...END OF STORY...
A did not talk to B after that...
14th March 2004...
A couldn't stand it anymore...A told B about E...B cried because B felt guilty...A asked about D too...and B told A that B likes D...A asked B whether to wait for B...
Everything is settled now...the only problem is that...
A really really likes B...
B likes D...
D likes someone else...
B told A that there is no point liking D since D likes somebody else...
And told A that B likes A...
A thinks that B still likes D and was very confused whether to wait for B...
B made A believe that B actually likes A too...
A sent another message...
A will wait for B until B accepts A again...
The next day...A, B and C2 were talking...
A asked C2 whether A should wait for B...C2 said 'no'...A asked why...C2 said:" Because every time when D called...B looked very happy and excited...when A called B...B got like that meh?"
B said got...
A didn't really believed...really...
If A wait for B...
Suddenly...D likes B...
and B will sure go to D...
What can A do?
Wait?
How long?
Should A wait if there is a chance...
Or A should wait no matter what...
A is very very confused...
So...should A wait for B?
Please help...
Do you know how much I care?
03.12.04 (12:06 am) [edit]
Have you ever trust me?
Do you know how much I care?
I'm not using you...
I'm just not that independent...
I've never have the thought to even hurt you...
Why do you think I'm using you?
How come you trust someone who talks rubbish?
And never trust me?
That 'will' became 'won't'...
what happens next?
Do I look like that?
Why not talk to me...
I couldn't explain because I'm not suppose to know...
Why not tell me everything...
I need a discussion...
Please...
Don't treat me like that...
I'm not that kind of person...
Do you know how much I care?
I'm not using you...
I'm just not that independent...
I've never have the thought to even hurt you...
Why do you think I'm using you?
How come you trust someone who talks rubbish?
And never trust me?
That 'will' became 'won't'...
what happens next?
Do I look like that?
Why not talk to me...
I couldn't explain because I'm not suppose to know...
Why not tell me everything...
I need a discussion...
Please...
Don't treat me like that...
I'm not that kind of person...
Dad...
03.03.04 (3:43 am) [edit]
What else can I say about you? You are just an irritating stranger to me...You cannot control me...I want to do things my OWN way...so get the shit of yourself out of here...I do not like you...When you don't have anything to say...just shut up...don't tell me nonsense...I don't know you...And stop trying to make me know you.
Let me ask you...what do you know about me? My name? Is that what you know? Damn it! What do I do in school? What clubs I joined? What sports I take part in? What's my position in class? Which class I'm in? Can you give me all of the damn answers? You can't.
Living with you is horrible. It's okay with me if you keep quiet all day...I prefer you not talking to me and me not talking to you...because all your words are like hell of a shit! They are all wrong...they are all negative...tell me...when's the last time you ever say something good about me? Huh? When I was three? Shit! Think about it! You never appreciate anything I've achieve! You only care about that fat irritating pig of yours! You do all kinds of shit with him! How about me?! Ask yourself! Every word that comes out from that damn mouth of yours to me are like what? I'm your daughter or am I just a bunch of shit to you? Huh?
To tell you frankly...you are childish! I never listen to anything you say...Oh no...I do listen...but I never care about what the hell you say...just say what you want...It'll never change me...I'm sick of you doing that...I'm bored of hearing the same shit over and over again...so keep your damn mouth shut! You always say you don't want to repeat the same thing over and over again...then why repeat? You seriously need a book to write down whatever shit you told me and in brackets (never repeat the same thing)...then whenever you feel like saying something...refer to that " Things I've said to my daughter" book! Don't you think it's damn good of a idea?!
You are no father to me...I dislike you...I do not know who you are...And I don't think you like what I did either...And that may make you hate me...but it's ok...If you hate me...then we are even...Coz I don't like you...
I want to run away from this jail...this place is like so beautiful...but the people here makes it like hell...how do you want me to respect you...when you were not even 24 hours a week here...Tell me...if one day...one of your children will be gone forever...but you can decide which one to let go...who will you choose? Damn it! You know in my heart I know the answer...And I do know the answer deep down in that freaking heart of yours...things were never fair to me...think again...
Let me ask you...what do you know about me? My name? Is that what you know? Damn it! What do I do in school? What clubs I joined? What sports I take part in? What's my position in class? Which class I'm in? Can you give me all of the damn answers? You can't.
Living with you is horrible. It's okay with me if you keep quiet all day...I prefer you not talking to me and me not talking to you...because all your words are like hell of a shit! They are all wrong...they are all negative...tell me...when's the last time you ever say something good about me? Huh? When I was three? Shit! Think about it! You never appreciate anything I've achieve! You only care about that fat irritating pig of yours! You do all kinds of shit with him! How about me?! Ask yourself! Every word that comes out from that damn mouth of yours to me are like what? I'm your daughter or am I just a bunch of shit to you? Huh?
To tell you frankly...you are childish! I never listen to anything you say...Oh no...I do listen...but I never care about what the hell you say...just say what you want...It'll never change me...I'm sick of you doing that...I'm bored of hearing the same shit over and over again...so keep your damn mouth shut! You always say you don't want to repeat the same thing over and over again...then why repeat? You seriously need a book to write down whatever shit you told me and in brackets (never repeat the same thing)...then whenever you feel like saying something...refer to that " Things I've said to my daughter" book! Don't you think it's damn good of a idea?!
You are no father to me...I dislike you...I do not know who you are...And I don't think you like what I did either...And that may make you hate me...but it's ok...If you hate me...then we are even...Coz I don't like you...
I want to run away from this jail...this place is like so beautiful...but the people here makes it like hell...how do you want me to respect you...when you were not even 24 hours a week here...Tell me...if one day...one of your children will be gone forever...but you can decide which one to let go...who will you choose? Damn it! You know in my heart I know the answer...And I do know the answer deep down in that freaking heart of yours...things were never fair to me...think again...